Tuesday, December 11, 2007

I Can't Believe I Really Said That!!

Today, I received an email from my dear friend Molly. She has started an on-line Bible-Study Forum, where we will be studying the book Seeking Him: Experiencing the Joy of Personal Revival.

To say that I was excited to join this forum is an understatement. Molly's statement on one of her posts really tugged at my heart. She said:

"To know that I love the Lord but that I've tended to put other things first as of late, well it’s more than a bit embarrassing.

I want my passion back!

I’m in need of a personal revival."

When I saw that, I thought to my self: "Yeah. I need that too. I have passion, but I have also started to put other things first." I had made up my mind ... I would join in on the study. I was so excited. I called our bookstore and ordered the book. A week or so later, they called me to tell me the book was in... and to this very moment ... that is where it remains. At the store.

In fact, last night, Molly sent out an email to see what we all thought about continuing the study in January when we all slow down with our personal lives ... and this is actually what I emailed her ... and frankly ... I'm horrified that I even typed these very words. I said to her:

"I would love it if we could begin in January. I am so overwhelmed right now... Sadly, I don't think I could give it 100%, and I really think it deserves 100%!! I know that's sad, and it's a bad excuse (the holidays) but it's all I can do right now. I still haven't even had a free moment to go pick the book up!"

Did I really say that? "I don't think I can give it 100%?" Have I put Christ on the back burner, because I'm "busy with all my holiday preparations?" You know the ones ... because you're probably wrapped up in them too, but for heaven's sake ... it IS HIS BIRTHDAY we are celebrating! You would think I would be able to sit down each night for a half hour to an hour to study this book!

So this admission that I made to Molly earlier today has been bothering me all day long. Yes, I do study the word and do my daily devotion... but in order to grow, and be all I can be for Christ, it involves in-depth study... more than just a 15 minute devotion. It involves pulling out resource books, asking questions, thinking things through, and more importantly, praying things through.

It seems that this blogger is in serious need of a priority adjustment!

Are you feeling that "holiday pinch?" Are you juggling your priorities, while managing to make quality time with our Savior? Or are you making quality time for our Savior and then juggling all the other things?


Tania said...

Oh man... Gibee... this is certainly an eye opener. And I have to say... I am quite guilty of having my priorities out of order. Thank you for the reminder.

Tania from weirblessed.com/faithprints.

Beth/Mom2TwoVikings said...

*guilty chuckle* Ya think? Even with a bloggy break and our stripped down, frugal, no traditional gift-giving Cmas going on here, we're still completely caught up in all the "extra" things going on this time of year. You are not alone, sister!

Susanne said...

You are definitely not alone. I can totally relate! Like you I do take pause throughout the day and find the Lord in my days and do my devotion but really study and pray over it right now? It's not happening here either.

Heather Smith said...

Okay, to this I must say a serious OH ME, because I so need to regain focus on the reason. My mind has been surrounded with Christmas preparations and baby preparations and a million other things, but without Christ, what is anything? Thanks for "stepping on my toes" a bit today, GiBee! I needed it!

ValleyGirl said...

Oh man, you and me both!!! I may have to check out that study, or at least the book.

Kari & Kijsa said...

What a wonderful reminder- said so simply, yet profoundly! thanks for the refocusing nudge!

kari & kijsa

LvlyRita said...

I have been feeling the same thing. God is calling me to fast and pray for a few different things, and "I am just too busy to do that right now." (sigh) When I need Him the most, too.