Because I Said So!

So, today, we're going to talk about me. Me, me, me, me, me. Why, you might ask? Well, because I said so. And, because I can. Also, because it's my blog. And mostly, because I had one of those moments where you open your mouth to speak, and your ears can NOT believe they are hearing what is actually coming out of your mouth.

You see, as you may (or may not) already know, I have three 100-celled embryos that are frozen and waiting for transfer (via IVF). My husband and I lovingly joke about our kidsicles or children on ice... and sometimes joke about how God has given us such a wonderful, calm, complacent, and totally happy baby for our first, that the three we have frozen will probably be a handful of mischief, energy and Trouble, with a capital T.

But today, as I was talking to someone in the ladies room (because that's what we womenfolk do... socialize in the ladies room), she was telling me that her second was so different from her first. The first child was calm and good. The second one was wild, and had the attention span of 5 seconds. That's when I opened my mouth to tell her that I had 3 frozen embryoes and they were probably all going to be demons. Demons. WHAT? Did I just say that? Why did I say that?

I walked away in a state of shock that I had referred to my future children as demons. I had confessed that with my mouth! I was always taught that the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart (Matt. 15:18a), and my mom always said that if you confess it, you will possess it... (I'm sure that's in scripture somewhere, I just can't pull it out of the old memory bank right now).

So, what have I done? I have basically said that I am fully expecting that the precious gifts GOD gave to us (our future children) will be so awful and ill behaved that people will be able to compare them to demons.

Sometimes, I just open my mouth without guarding what I say. Some people lovingly refer to is as a sickness -- diarrhea of the mouth. I refer to it as -- stupidity of the worst kind.

Oh, Lord, please forgive me. FORGIVE ME. These are your children, and I know they will each be unique and wonderful in their own way, and we will love them so much. I am so thankful each and every day when I think of what my future may hold, and I confess right now that I will have wonderful children. Lord, please help me guard my tongue ... DAILY. Amen.

I guess I need to memorize this: "If only you would be altogether silent! For you, that would be wisdom." Job 13:5

And this: "He who guards his lips guards his life, but he who speaks rashly will come to ruin." Prov. 13:3